🌥 The Sky Behind the Clouds: Remembering the One Who Is Aware

Growth doesn’t mean always feeling strong.
It means being honest.
It means being willing to meet yourself exactly where you are—even when you’ve forgotten what you know.
Even when you fall into old fears.

This morning, I fell.

I woke up and forgot every truth I’ve spent years practicing.
I got caught in the outside. I saw money decrease, and memories from my past came flooding in—times of lack, fear, survival.
And then, the anxiety came.

It felt like I’d been hit—sharp and precise.
Suddenly I was the prey, hunted by thoughts I didn’t ask for but believed anyway.
And then came the heaviness in my chest, the tightness, the shame:
“How can I write about awareness when I can’t even remember it in my own life?”

I cried.
Not just because I felt afraid, but because I felt like a fraud.
A voice inside said: “You should have figured this out by now.”

But that’s when I realized—this is exactly what I write about.

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🌀 The Trap of the Outside

We suffer when we believe our experiences are more real than we are.
When we give so much attention to thoughts and fears that we forget who is aware of them.

Yes, the experience feels real. Yes, the fear seems powerful.
But isn’t it possible that what we feel is shaped—not by what’s actually happening—but by our past interpretations of it?

Most of the time, we don’t question it.
We assume pain means something is wrong.
We assume anxiety means something is missing.
We chase peace by trying to fix the outside.

But I remembered—again—that this doesn’t work.
It never has.

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✨ Coming Back to the One Who Sees

There’s always a moment—if we allow it—when we can stop and ask:
Who is experiencing this?

Not what is happening, but who is aware of what’s happening?

That’s when I returned.
Not by running.
Not by fixing.
But by remembering.

I am not the anxious thought.
I am not the bank account.
I am not the child of scarcity or the projection of past fears.
I am the one aware of it all.

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🌱 Choosing to Lead

So instead of letting fear lead me today, I chose to lead myself.
I acknowledged the anxiety—it was there. But I didn’t let it take the front seat.
I breathed. I got still. And I decided:
This moment will not define me.

I am not here to be ruled by old assumptions. I am here to create from truth.

Instead of seeing the money as disappearing, I saw it as an invitation.
A push to focus.
A reminder of what really matters.

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☀️ The Sky Is Always Blue

No matter how dark the clouds, the sky has never left.
It never goes anywhere.
We don’t have to create the sun—it’s always there.
We just have to remember.

And so, I write this now not as someone who has it all figured out,
but as someone who chose to come back home to herself this morning.

To the sky.
To the stillness.
To the awareness that never leaves.

If you’re in a heavy place right now, I hope this reaches you.

You are not your thoughts.
You are not your fear.
You are not what’s happening.
You are the one who is aware.

And that’s where your power lives.