Today, after only a few hours at work, I stepped out of the daycare center and felt an overwhelming tension in my chest. Everything felt foreign and distant. My breath was shallow, and a flood of thoughts rushed through my mind.
I crossed a large bridge and paused to look down over the city. Something in me needed stillness—to go inward and ask: What’s happening inside?
Being a visual person, I immediately saw an image in my mind: a huge water balloon, heavy and on the verge of bursting. I felt the weight of it, emotionally, physically, and then the tears came. Just like clouds that can no longer hold the weight of summer rain, my tears fell freely. And with them, came relief.
As the tears rolled down my cheeks, I found myself reflecting on my life. I asked, Have I truly dared to dream big? Am I being honest with myself?
Where in my life am I not living what makes me feel truly alive? And if I’m not — what’s holding me back?
Why is it that, at times, life feels like something I merely have to endure, rather than something I’m free to fully embrace?
We tell ourselves that “now” isn’t the right time. We postpone joy, rest, change. We wait for the children to grow up, for the right partner, for more money, less responsibility, the perfect moment. But what if we only had 24 hours left to live? Would we still be waiting?
Too often, our reasons become excuses.
We say it’s because of work, the relationship, the household, the money.
And maybe there’s some truth to that.
But it’s only as true as we choose to believe it.
The deeper truth is this: if it doesn’t make you happy, something needs to change —
because your life is meant to be lived in joy.
And that begins with a decision.
Neville Goddard once said, “The word ‘impossible’ does not exist in my vocabulary.” What if we removed it from ours too? What if we chose to believe that life supports us when we dare to trust our inner voice?
We spend so much energy focused on why things can’t change. What would happen if we gave that same energy to how they might?
As I stood there on the bridge, I realized how often I had given away my energy, how often I had prioritized the well-being of others over my own. Sometimes out of love, but often out of a sense of duty.
And yet, what we often call love is really a yes to the other and a no to ourselves.
In the end, it becomes a no to the other as well, because when we say yes outwardly but no in our hearts, we are not being honest with ourselves or with the other person.
From this inner conflict, expectations often arise, the hope that our own needs will somehow be met. And that’s human, even beautiful, as long as we don’t lose ourselves in the process, and don’t forget that only we can truly fulfill ourselves.
Our inner voice knows. It tells us quietly when we’ve wandered too far from our truth. But we’ve been taught to ignore it, to be sensible, to be “good girls,” to stay in line.
There’s a saying: “Good girls go to heaven; bad girls go everywhere.” Maybe we’ve misunderstood what being “good” really means. Goodness, in its highest form, starts with truth. It starts with doing what lights you up from the inside.
In my case, I had to ask: Am I living to serve others? Or am I doing what makes my soul sing?
Time passes. Life doesn’t wait. If we want to feel fully alive, we have to be willing to look at the beliefs and fears that keep us stuck. We must ask, Is it really true that I can’t change this? Or am I hiding behind an old story because I’m afraid of what change might demand of me?
We have to be honest—with deep, compassionate clarity. Real happiness is not found in the approval of others, or in waiting for perfect conditions. It’s found when we take full responsibility for the direction of our lives.
Like Neville says, “I AM” is the most powerful phrase in the universe—whatever follows it shapes our world.
Everyone has to be something. Even those who feel lost still carry an identity.
So I ask you the same question I asked myself on that bridge:
Who are you? And who are you becoming?Who Are You—Really?